30 Days

Today is the "one month to go" mark on my wedding calendar. I'm getting a little nervous (and very excited) about the event. I've got a lot left to do, and not a lot of time or money to do it, but I know that we can make it work.

The other aspect of this "one month" countdown ties in with a lot of what I've been thinking about lately when it comes to health and my body. As I previously stated, I am happy with myself. My body and its size is not one of my top priorities. Ben loves my body and I love him for that. The only thing I don't like about myself at the moment is how unhealthy I feel. B and I have become a bit sedentary here in Helena. We've been eating for comfort and spending a lot of time in front of the television/computer. Because of this, neither of us are as healthy as we'd like to be. Starting today, B and I have committed to a one mile walk each evening after (a healthier) dinner. Hopefully, with this as a start, we can committ to living a healthier lifestyle, and creating a life together that will be as long as possible.

I feel that this ceremony has a slightly different meaning for B and I than it does for other young couples. B and I have been together for six years this October. We've been living together for four of those six years. In our minds, we have already made a life-long committment to one another. A lot of what this ceremony is, for us, is telling the world that we are in it for the long run. Beyond the practical, legal aspects (which are important to us), this ceremony also says that we mean to do the "work" of love. To go beyond what we normally would to support one another and make our collective lives great.